My beautiful daughter Elise Jessica was sadly born silently on Friday 4th April 2003. Mummy and daddy left heart broken, our beautiful baby was taken to soon. We thought this our chance to start again, as the year before we'd had a miscarriage at only 11 weeks which also broke our hearts. It taken some getting over but when i fell pregnant with Elise, we thought we'd been given another chance. I found out i was pregnant with Elise just 2 months after my first miscarriage. Being pregnant eased some of the pain of what had happend last time but there was still a thought in back of my head that maybe it would happen again and i'll lose this baby also. When i reached 12 weeks in this pregnacy i knew i could start to relax, i thought things would go ok. When we went for our twenty week scan everything was fine and we found out we was going to have another beautiful baby girl. We already had a little princess Rhianna and another would have made our family complete. As the weeks went by i bloomed and our baby was growing rapidly, we decided to call our baby Elise Jessica. When i went to the midwives at 34 weeks every thing was fine, strong heart beat and the measurements was spot on, no need to worry. Then 2 weeks later was at the midwives again to find my baby had not grown, there was a heart beat and the midwife told me to go home and not to worry. How could i not worry. That was the last midwife appointment i had with this pregnancy whilst my baby was alive. My baby had died at 38 and a half weeks. Why had i listend to that midwife i don't know. It was thursday morning and i had to be on delievey suite for 8 30am to be induced, i didn't want to go. I started having contractions that evening, i was scared and broken, didn't know how i should feel. The friday morning our beatiful daughter was born, silenty. I was hoping deep down that maybe the doctors were going to be wrong and when my baby was born she'd cry out but i was wrong, i felt so numb. Our baby had died because she had the umbilical cord around her kneck 4 times, her oxygen was restricted. She must have been in so much destress and we wasn't to know. I feel lost. We buried our daughter Elise Jessica on the day she should have been born. Six weeks after giving birth, we attended a meeting at the hospital to discuss what had happend and why had my little princess died, it comes to say that that midwife who sent me home and told me not to worry should have sent me for a growth scan. Then maybe Elise would be here today. That midwife had nothing happen to her but a telling off and is still on the diamond team. It disguits me! Since Elise i have gone on to having 3 lovely boys but i will never forgot thier sister. In my pregnancies with the boys i refused to see that midwife. Luckily my boys arrived safely maybe because our angel has watched over them.We love you Elise and always will. xx